Friday, February 25, 2011
Teen Mom
When I first heard there was a show on MTV called Teen Mom I thought, oh that's just great glorify being a teen mom! Now how many teenagers will get pregnant just to try and be on an MTV show. I never watched it. The kids would talk about it and I told them I thought it was ridiculous to have a show like that on TV. You see I was a teen mom, I know the struggles...
Well yesterday was a snow day, I went to work for a couple of hours and when I cam home Blake was just leaving with his friends. He had left the TV on, and yep you guessed it...Teen Mom was on. I sat down with the intent of changing the channel, but before I knew it I was sucked in and watching Teen Mom. It was so real, there was no glorification there at all. It showed the struggles of being a teen mom. If i was a young person watching that show it would really make me think twice about being very careful not to become pregnant. I still don't know that it's TV worthy but it's definitely not what I thought it was.
Well yesterday was a snow day, I went to work for a couple of hours and when I cam home Blake was just leaving with his friends. He had left the TV on, and yep you guessed it...Teen Mom was on. I sat down with the intent of changing the channel, but before I knew it I was sucked in and watching Teen Mom. It was so real, there was no glorification there at all. It showed the struggles of being a teen mom. If i was a young person watching that show it would really make me think twice about being very careful not to become pregnant. I still don't know that it's TV worthy but it's definitely not what I thought it was.
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Good day
Its been a very good day
My cat who has been at the kitty hospital since Sat got to come home today!!! He has been giving me sooo much love, such a sweet cat. So happy to have him home.
Its been snowing off and on all day. Just now starting to stick but falling snow makes me happy.
5 days until my classes start!
Yep...its a good day :)
My cat who has been at the kitty hospital since Sat got to come home today!!! He has been giving me sooo much love, such a sweet cat. So happy to have him home.
Its been snowing off and on all day. Just now starting to stick but falling snow makes me happy.
5 days until my classes start!
Yep...its a good day :)
Sunday, February 20, 2011
Saturday, February 19, 2011
Work, work, work
My husband works SO much sometimes. It isn't because he would rather be at work because I know he would much rather be here. It isn't because he is a workaholic either. He is just a super responsible person and when he needs to work to get things done, well he works to get things done. I am thankful he has a job, and I am so thankful he works so hard, and I really like the extra money on his pay check. But I wish his weekends were spent at home and not at work. Today is an absolutely gorgeous day here in the Pacific Northwest and if he were home we'd go for a hike or do something fun outdoors. Yes, I could do that by myself or go meet up with some friends, but I really want him to be with me. So I guess instead I will spend some time out cleaning up my garden. Maybe I will go for a walk...
Friday, February 18, 2011
Things I never knew...
Funny how after almost 11 years together I am still learning new things about the man I am married to.
He just recently told me he worries terribly when I travel without him...something I do often. I wonder why he never told me that before? Maybe he thought I knew, or maybe he thought my fierce independence would say "Oh stop being silly, I can take care of myself!" or maybe telling me made him feel vulnerable...I don't know. But I must say it made me feel good to know how much he worries. Also made me realize how important it is to let him know when I arrive safely. I usually always do that, but every now and then I forget.
I also learned when he makes a sandwich the cheese has to go with the mustard! lol Ok...so whats the big deal there? Well really nothing, except that my husband is the most normal person I know and I didn't think he had any weird quirks like that lol I have a million of them...so maybe he is not as normal I as I thought lol
He just recently told me he worries terribly when I travel without him...something I do often. I wonder why he never told me that before? Maybe he thought I knew, or maybe he thought my fierce independence would say "Oh stop being silly, I can take care of myself!" or maybe telling me made him feel vulnerable...I don't know. But I must say it made me feel good to know how much he worries. Also made me realize how important it is to let him know when I arrive safely. I usually always do that, but every now and then I forget.
I also learned when he makes a sandwich the cheese has to go with the mustard! lol Ok...so whats the big deal there? Well really nothing, except that my husband is the most normal person I know and I didn't think he had any weird quirks like that lol I have a million of them...so maybe he is not as normal I as I thought lol
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Biggest loser
Today we started a Biggest Loser contest at work! We all weighed in today...that sucked lol I hate anyone knowing my weight, but we all felt the same way so it was ok. We have one person who is not doing the contest that recorded our weights and she is the only one who knows what we weigh. The contest is going to run until May 19th and the winner should end up with $300!! Whoo....I want to win! I will update my progress here just because. Wish me luck!
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Brene Brown: The power of vulnerability | Video on TED.com
Brene Brown: The power of vulnerability Video on TED.com
Please take the time to watch this. It is so true, a few years ago I was so afraid of being vulnerable that I wouldn't let anyone in. Instead I hid behind anger, because anger would not make me vulnerable. Slowly I allowed myself to feel more hurt, more happiness, more of everything.To most people I always seemed happy and positive, but inside I was and angry depressed mess. I allowed very few people to know that side of me. In fact there were only two(I hope they know who they are) and with their help I became a different person.They might not even realize the impact they have had on my life and my well being. Slowly the anger and depression drifted away to feeling truly happy.Today, I feel I am a truly wholehearted person. I love, I hurt, I grieve, and I do it all with intensity. I allow more people to see that side of me and I've learned that the people that matter love me anyway. I am a much more lovable person these days.
Please take the time to watch this. It is so true, a few years ago I was so afraid of being vulnerable that I wouldn't let anyone in. Instead I hid behind anger, because anger would not make me vulnerable. Slowly I allowed myself to feel more hurt, more happiness, more of everything.To most people I always seemed happy and positive, but inside I was and angry depressed mess. I allowed very few people to know that side of me. In fact there were only two(I hope they know who they are) and with their help I became a different person.They might not even realize the impact they have had on my life and my well being. Slowly the anger and depression drifted away to feeling truly happy.Today, I feel I am a truly wholehearted person. I love, I hurt, I grieve, and I do it all with intensity. I allow more people to see that side of me and I've learned that the people that matter love me anyway. I am a much more lovable person these days.
Friday, February 11, 2011
It just doesnt sound right
I keep starting a blog...but it just won't come out right. So no blog from me today, how about a picture instead.
Clam digging on New Years Day :)
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
Living your dreams
Are you living your dreams? If not, why? and do you think you will get there? Have your dreams changed?
I am living the life I used to dream of and never thought I'd have. In my old life I was always hurting, angry, broken...rarely was I truly happy. I felt like I did not belong anywhere. I dreamed of a life where I'd be happy, where I'd have a home that felt like home, where I'd feel like I belonged. Here I am, honestly content with my life. Sure there are still dream for the future, but if my life stayed as it is today I'd be perfectly happy with that. I love my home, and it FEELS like home, I love the area I live in, I feel loved every day by the people around me. It truly doesn't get much better than this. As for my future dreams...
I plan on getting my degree and moving forward on the career path I am on, which is serving the elderly and disabled in my community.
I plan to spend more time hiking, camping, just being outdoors.
One day maybe I will have the farm I dream of where I can raise more of my own food.
I also plan on continuing to feel loved every day by the people around me and loving them in return, because in the end that is what truly matters to me.
I am living the life I used to dream of and never thought I'd have. In my old life I was always hurting, angry, broken...rarely was I truly happy. I felt like I did not belong anywhere. I dreamed of a life where I'd be happy, where I'd have a home that felt like home, where I'd feel like I belonged. Here I am, honestly content with my life. Sure there are still dream for the future, but if my life stayed as it is today I'd be perfectly happy with that. I love my home, and it FEELS like home, I love the area I live in, I feel loved every day by the people around me. It truly doesn't get much better than this. As for my future dreams...
I plan on getting my degree and moving forward on the career path I am on, which is serving the elderly and disabled in my community.
I plan to spend more time hiking, camping, just being outdoors.
One day maybe I will have the farm I dream of where I can raise more of my own food.
I also plan on continuing to feel loved every day by the people around me and loving them in return, because in the end that is what truly matters to me.
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Sunday ramblings
Not a lot going on today...we'll be watching the Superbowl this afternoon, and eating yummy nacho's. Been kind of a lazy day.
Marc has been experimenting with dehydrated foods for hiking/camping. Last night we ate his first soup from all dehydrated veggies and meats...OMG it was so good! The only thing missing was a campfire and stars in the sky. Totally made me want to go camping. Of course it didn't help that earlier in the day we had driven up to Wynoochee Lake, walked around the campground and hiked a couple trails. Really gave me the camping itch.
I am ever so patiently (ok maybe not so patiently) waiting for my first real online classes to start. I just finished week one of orientation...and it's just making me want more! The orientation is kinda slow, and super easy. I am already finished my assignments for week two lol Anyhow I am totally looking forward to my first two classes and hope they won;t be too much for me!
Ok...guess that's it for this Sunday afternoon.
Marc has been experimenting with dehydrated foods for hiking/camping. Last night we ate his first soup from all dehydrated veggies and meats...OMG it was so good! The only thing missing was a campfire and stars in the sky. Totally made me want to go camping. Of course it didn't help that earlier in the day we had driven up to Wynoochee Lake, walked around the campground and hiked a couple trails. Really gave me the camping itch.
I am ever so patiently (ok maybe not so patiently) waiting for my first real online classes to start. I just finished week one of orientation...and it's just making me want more! The orientation is kinda slow, and super easy. I am already finished my assignments for week two lol Anyhow I am totally looking forward to my first two classes and hope they won;t be too much for me!
Ok...guess that's it for this Sunday afternoon.
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Letting go...
Have you ever held on to something or someone just because you were afraid of letting go? I am sure you have...I think we all have. I know I have, on more than one occasion. Usually I hold on to relationships(friends, loves, family ect...) after they are long over. I think I hold on to the dream that maybe it can be what it once was. I am learning that some people are meant to come into your life and they are also meant to leave it. I have found that hanging on too long only ends up making letting go hurt even more. Letting go can be both painful and freeing. The hard part is deciding whats worth holding on to and whats not. A few years ago I was ready to let go of my marriage and today I am so glad I didn't. Slowly I am learning what I need to let go of...
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
The little things
Its always the little things that bring me the most comfort and happiness...
The beauty of the sunrise
The sound of children laughing
The birds flying outside my window
But one of the things that brings me the most happiness is hearing the way my boys interact together. Those boys get along so well and I am so thankful for that. I always wondered as they were growing up if they would be close as adults. Well now they are getting closer to adulthood (one has reached it in age, not sure about maturity lol) and they are so close. Last night around 9pm they decided they were going jogging. I was laying in bed listening to them get ready and it just made me smile, made me feel so happy inside as I listened to their banter, their laughter. I believe that as adults they will remain very good friends, and that makes my heart happy.
The beauty of the sunrise
The sound of children laughing
The birds flying outside my window
But one of the things that brings me the most happiness is hearing the way my boys interact together. Those boys get along so well and I am so thankful for that. I always wondered as they were growing up if they would be close as adults. Well now they are getting closer to adulthood (one has reached it in age, not sure about maturity lol) and they are so close. Last night around 9pm they decided they were going jogging. I was laying in bed listening to them get ready and it just made me smile, made me feel so happy inside as I listened to their banter, their laughter. I believe that as adults they will remain very good friends, and that makes my heart happy.
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